13Felt so much love, baby boy waited for me so long. Actually kinda of the first time he waited that long in school today for me.
Seriously i didn't expect that letting him wait for me, i would felt so happy and love.
Recently has been trying go in what normally baby boy love to do. Watching all the videos he into, playing the game he so addicted.
Yeahs, lot of people around me may say he isn't a guy that will do things for me, he isn't a guy that willing to give up gaming full heartedly, he not the one for me or i'm the one always letting him.
No i can just tell you all straight without any hesitation, no he the guy i choose and the guy i want.
He love me i know, it only he doesn't show it infront of other and he do care for me.
I admit his temper is not good, yet because i love him i don't mind of him throwing his temper at me.
Baby, i love you. No matter how bad things get i really can't live without you. All the tears i flow isn't free, i cried because i want you beside me, holding me, loving me, hugging me. I cried because i can't lose you, telling you thru my tears that you are so important to me.
Trust me again please, my heart is still unsecure. Still felt that one day you really won't be loving me anymore.
You the most perfect guy that can fit me perfectly.
You dote me, pamper me i know but at time i just want you to show me your love, proof that you still loving me, proof that im not a girl that is granted, not a girl that you can want when you felt like it and throw aside when you doesn't have mood.
Don't make me feel this way can you ? I envy those couple that go out and enjoy their day like how we does in the past yet now it doesn't seem like that anymore.
Either you are tired or you wake up late or slept late, baby do you know how happy i am ? I was at home changing thinking about the place we going, the things we gonna do but when you tired or what. You ruin it ):
I was trying my best to satisfy your everything but it doesn't seem to be enough.
Maybe to you i can't reach the girl you want, everytime you say you wanted your girlfriend to be like her or what.
I try, i abandon my temper my attitude of not following other people. You know i doesn't like but i swallow it down and do whatever you like.
Yet sometime i asked for something it become difficult for me, sorry i can only blog down.
Talk this face to face to you, i got a feeling you wanted to win. You wanted to be the victim. That why all i can is blog down, write down.
This week my tears has been flowing, i wanted to stop. Imma trying to change, imma afraid of cring, heartache i doesn't want to bleed anymore.
I just want you to smile, laugh, hug, love, kiss me Nothing else.
I really love you ^-^ Sorry for all the quarrel i costed just because imma feel unsecure i cause so much fight between us )':
Alright :D iloveyou !
